I finally got the look I needed
the one of disgust
that reduced me to a simple annoyance,
that served as a eulogy for what once was:
It was a BBQ party
A hot sweaty night
downtown Columbia
In the park-
I was having a beer with classmates
that I didn't know
I saw her with her cousin
So I ran over to say hey
::in my underwear - drenched::
Smile beaming
Tail wagging
-Stereotypically goofy-
-stereotypically vulnerable I suppose-
She just looked at me-
Then looked at her cousin,
To size up a response
"can you please go away"
and turned her head
as I ran - into the dark streets