Narcissistic Personality Disorder
another label from my phychiatrist friend
sadly, it sums me up well
manic episodes, father issues and all
it doesn't seem special though
it just means I am a dick
and have company
people who got hurt early in life
and had to either go with what they were told
or forge a confidence in themselves
so strong even reality couldn't crack it
I guess that's what this has all been about
admitting I have problems
that I lacked empathy
had an ego with it's own gravitational pull
I don't like this though
hurting people
the arrogance
it's just that mediocrity scares me
and I'm not sure how to face it
I am not used to seeing myself like that