Phase 1

I am not searching for a job, money, a wife, kids, a family... I desire something far more simple and far more elusive - contentment.

For the past year, I have explored Christianity superficially. I have given the ideas surronding my faith time to sink in, my own lifestyle time to make a transformation, and for a change in my own heart to emerge. I am still cynical, bitter, difficult to get along with at times. I have also noticed tremendous changes with the way in which i deal with my problems and face my life.

Recently, I began to address several specific areas which I have been struggling with. In my attempts to deal with those issues, I was forced to rely on the colloquial "power of Jesus" to overcome my problems. After somewhat successfully regaining self-control in those areas, I began to question the very idea which I had just relied on.